Have you ever wondered why you constantly feel drawn to
that one person you think you love? Have you ever asked yourself why do you
feel he holds in his big, strong hands your mind, your soul, your will and even
your body like you belong to him? And you simply know that no matter what, you
do belong to him. How is that?
It is not the fact
that you cannot leave, but you do not want to. Deep inside, you are sure you
cannot leave, indeed. Your body aches every time you are apart. You are cold
under the blanket, it seems too hot outside in the freezing wind, you feel alone surrounded by people and
you cannot think of anything else than his soul or his voice. You go to bed
wondering if he is fine, happy, hungry, cold, alone and so on. You wake up in
the middle of the night crying, realizing you fell asleep again without telling
him “Good night! I love you!” You fall back, you dream of him. Every.single.night.
Why do you organize your whole day, week maybe, by his
plans? Why do you try to find daily a way to go see him? You have to buy bread?
Why buying it from the closest shop? No. You go to the closest shop to his
place. Just so you can say “I was nearby
and I decided to see you”. What a lie, you little bloody in love girl.
You want to do everything with him, every little thing
that crosses your mind and seems either interesting or funny. You picture your
future days by his side. And they look gorgeous.
You also have moments when you cry. Because of him,
because of the circumstances, because of yourself. There are moments in time
when you doubt you love him. And you cry even harder then. You know it is a
lie. You feel you love him and you are ready to prove anyone who
doubts. Even yourself. But you have to
admit that there are times when he makes you doubt his love. Involuntary, of
course. He just does not realize. Probably boys do not overthink
like girls do. You lay down a while, think, analyze and cry to the conclusion
that it was a misunderstanding. You see him again, his eyes talk to you and the
sound of his heart’s beats did not change. He loves you. Like he always
did. Even more every day. Who knows?
In fact, why do you love him? The most complicated simple
question. Why do you love this man? The answer can take a small fraction of a
second or it can take your whole life to explain. Besides that, you do not actually know why
you love him. You just do. And that, my friend, is what love does to people.
Your souls are made of the same material. Once they were one single soul. This
is why you both are drawn to each other. And even when you want to leave,
there’s something holding you back. Your soul loved his long before your bodies
met.
You never thought of that, did you? Your souls tend to be one again. How can two souls be one if they are
trapped in separate bodies? They have to be one body.
This is why you love one man and one alone. And this is
why he loves you and you cannot doubt that. Because he’s you. And you are him. End of
story.
